Love Story

Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

sigh

Frustrations

Passing frustrations make me think about all that's going on in my subconscious right now. The list of emotions I'm feeling keeps growing as things surface. I'm upset, as I have been for the last 2 months, that my family (parents and both brothers) is on cruise in the Caribbean without me.

I'm hurt that they felt fine taking a family vacation without me.
I'm hurt that they didn't tell me until after they had made the plans.
I feel left out of my own family.
I'm mad they didn't decide to wait to do something until the summer, when I could go and we could count it for my graduation.
I'm hurt that it doesn't seem like they even thought of that.
I'm confused as to why it was necessary to take a family vacation right....*now*
I'm hurt that they didn't think this would hurt me.
I'm jealous they're on a cruise to the Caribbean right now and I'm not.
I'm frustrated that I don't know how to communicate this to them, or even if I should, but don't know how to make all the feelings go away.

I don't want to be bitter about this the rest of my life. I want to feel like I actually belong in my family, but when things like this happen, that gets hard.